Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Sarah Lee

On Friday morning, we lost our beautiful dog, Sarah Lee. I wasn't sure I would write this post or what it would even say, but it felt wrong not to say a few words about the special little animal that was such a big part of our life. Sarah had been diagnosed with an inoperable bladder tumor a few months ago, and we knew eventually the tumor would get so big that she would no longer be able to function. But she had been trucking along just fine recently, and we had hoped that would last till Christmas.

But last week she started getting sick, bladder infection we thought. So we gave her medicine, it didn't help, and she just got worse and worse. By Thursday, she couldn't pee at all, and she literally spent all night outside trying to pee and throwing up. It was pitiful. And that night, I just knew it was over. I knew when I took her to the vet in the morning, she would be gone. The worst part of it all was Adam was out-of-town, so I had to be the one (although we talked about it, and he even said goodbye to her over the phone, she was so excited to hear her daddy's voice) to make the call. And I was the one in the room with her, holding her, when she drifted off.

During the whole process, I stayed upbeat with her because I didn't want her to pick up on my sadness and be upset. But after she was gone, I couldn't believe I could cry so much or so hard. I couldn't believe Adam could cry so much or so hard.

Although there aren't that many tears left that I can cry, there are few moments when her absence isn't noticed. There is no one to wake me up way too early in the morning because she wants to go on a walk (something that used to annoy me, but now I miss desperately), there is no one to feed, no one to give belly rubs to, no one to laugh at because of the way she scratches her back, or talk to in annoying baby voices. Sometimes Adam and my's mind will trick us for a split second, and we will look up to see what she is doing only to be faced with the reality that she is gone.

She was the sweetest, gentlest, kindest dog, and anyone who ever got the pleasure of meeting her couldn't help but fall head over heels in love with her.

So rest in peace our Sarah Lee. You were our baby, our precious goldie, and you will be forever missed.

7 comments:

  1. I am sorry for your loss. She sounds like such a sweet pup and will be missed by a family that loved her! Having two fur-babbies of my own, I don't know if I could be strong enough to keep my sadness at bay. Take care.

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  2. I am so sorry for your loss... losing a pet, a member of the family, is never easy. Sending good thoughts to your family.

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  3. hey Britt, so sorry to hear about your sweet doggy! she had a good life with you guys, and i love that you blogged about her. animals are such a special part of our lives, and i know she was important part of yours. hang in there...

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  4. So sorry for your loss! You are so brave and I'll miss reading about miss Sarah! :(

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  5. Wow, I'm so sorry. I hope you're doing as good as can be expected...

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  6. so sad!! sounds like she was lucky to have such great owners as you, though.

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  7. awww..that's so sad..sorry about your loss!

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